you've pinned your wings.

swing me down, quick and quiet little sighs
pick me up, soft and strong, carry me home
slip and fall, on your knees, don't you cry
i'll carry your heart, you can't hold on for long

lift your eyes, sweet and damp, softened smiles
hold my hand, firm and cold while we walk this road
step by step, soul & soul, mile by mile
take me near beside you and we can share your load

be brave, arch your back, open your lungs
unpin your wings, ball your fists, let your song be sung

yesssssss!

my shoulders hurt.
i think maybe my wings are coming in.
yes. finally.


i can fly.

that time of day

i love that time of day, when its just fading to night
i love how all you say is sweeter, everything is black and white
i love the feeling of chills in my bones
i love when its midnight and im far from home
i love the time i spend with you in the dusk
i love how our laughs turned from hope into trust.

n o f e a r

be still, stay near
heart filled, head clear

breathe deep, let go
hold fast, speak slow

your hand, my hand
no fear, no plans.

pb&j

sometimes when i think of you, i think of peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. because you give my mouth that uncomfortable, dry feeling and it makes me nervous, but you’re sweet and i love you.

and then one day, i did.

i think you were really gone for a while there.
of course, not really.
you were always still here.
but what i used to feel when you looked at me was gone.
for a moment, in the grand scope of things.
months, in my scope of things.
we didnt talk.
we didnt phone
we didnt laugh
we didnt hold our breath
we didnt wink
i didnt look at you when you passed.


and then one day i did.

and today, its like you never left.
and its not so bad, because while you were gone, i missed you.
i didnt know what it was at first.

that awkward 'missing you' lump in my stomach.
that confusion, when you think there is one more stair than there is.
and your foot falls down, along with your insides.
and its awkward
and messy
and sorrowful

and then one day it wasn't anymore.

because i looked up, and there you were, and we decided not to not. and now we do, instead of dont, and we will, instead of wont.

thank you.

my heart beats for the forest

sometimes when the grass is still wet, and the sun is barely down
when the color is leeched from the earth into dusk
and the street is a ghost town

sometimes when my hands are cold, so the warm wind fills me up
when the trees all sigh, suddenly inside isn't quite enough

sometimes when i lift my face, and scream into the wind
when the sky cries and rain fills my eyes im back where it begins

im back where ive always been in my head, im back where i feel best
im back where i'd left my heart, because the woods call it out of my chest

no thank you.

we saw the tide, coming in
my sister held both my hands

there in my mind, deep within
your voice, i hear you command

let me in.
let me in.
let me in your heart, your skin.

my sister held both my hands
i shut my eyes and said

no thank you.
please leave me alone.




you didnt.

the rest

i lost my breath
for a second there
i looked into your eyes

i know i always talk of flight
of earth and starry skies

but now, my lovely daring boy
i can't help but talk of you

and when you glance up, i loose my thoughts
they are so startleingly blue.

the earth is just dirt, you can't count on the wind
they all do their best

but your skin, your eyes your whispered sighs
the rest, is just the rest.

pancakes and a new beginning

we can't go back, i had to choose
between being me and having you
we held hands and watched the news
i hate the news, its always true.

we were eachothers in betweens
when i was on a limb
you took my hand, but we couldnt see
i wasnt her, you weren't him

maybe we can grow to know
eachother as best friends
i hope i know you when im old
i hope its not the end

i was your rosaline, you know
the one before The One
the world was blanketed in snow

but now i see the sun.